I don't really have much to say but I thought i'd at least say a little something since it has been a while. Nothing has changed really... work is busy and exhausting, home life is good...a bit boring lately. Somehow I hurt my knees (most likely from lunges at the gym with weights... probably shouldn't do those anymore :( ) So i now have to go to physical therapy and do some exercises at home. It really does effect my day to day life. I think i'm lazier becuase i hurt and i'm scared to work out in fears that I will injur myself more. Hopefully physical therapy will help :) I find myself in the dumps lately. I don't like it and i'm trying to make things better and get my spirits up but there's only so much you can do. It seems like i'm getting the short end of the stick with everything. I'm sooo tired of being alone and i can't get a date. The last person i went on a date with it wasn't really much of a date and has made things between me and that person seem a little akward. Things never go back to the way they were before...just friends. Oh well. I just don't understand why I have to live my life alone. I don't blame anyone but i just wish i could experience life with someone else for a while and enjoy it more. I'm really emotional lately and just so frustrated. I don't know what to do. I've beeen here before over and over again. I'm tired of this circle. I think about moving and yeah that may be a really good thing for me but at the same time... I can't afford to move! I can't even afford to get my own place which i really think that i need. Lately i've just felt i don't fit. I don't know what it is exactly...it's probably all in my head and i'm just making things worse than they are. Whit is basically dating this guy Brett which is cool...he's a good guy but I'm not sure I think they are a good match. I guess i'd have to hang with him to see who he really is. That's great for her that she likes him and he likes her... yada yada yada. I guess i just wish it was my turn. *sigh* let the pitty party begin. I've been sleeping a lot and going to bed early. Not good. grrr. Things need to change. I need to figure things out. I'm 26...almost 27. Let's get this party started eh? Question is...how the hell am i going to do this? What do i need to do? Helllllllllppppppppp. I guess people just don't understand. Things have just fallen apart it seems. Now to put the puzzle back together.
Meanwhile... i wait for my tmobile contract to be up so i can get the moto droid. :) oh joy. Christmas shopping is upon us... this year... i will make cookies n stuff for people since i'm broke. Such is life. Can't wait for turkey day... my favorite holiday!
"Oh rise and be all that you dreamed." Flyleaf
